My demons will ruin whatever is left of her halo. Elena Monroe © 2020 by Elena Monroe. All rights reserved. No portion of this book, except for brief review, may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means—electronic, mechanical, photocopy, recording, or otherwise—without the written consent and permission of the publisher. This is a work of fiction. Characters, names, dialogues, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, whether living or dead, businesses, locales, or events other than those specifically cited are unintentional and purely coincidental or are used for the purpose of illustration only. The publisher and author assume no responsibility for errors, omissions, or contrary interpretation of the subject matter herein. The author and publisher assume no responsibility or liability whatsoever on the behalf of any purchaser or reader of these materials. The publisher and author do not have any control over and do not assume any responsibility for third party websites or their content. First edition. Cover Design: Maria with Steamy Reads Editor: Mackenzie Letson of Nice Girl, Naughty Edits Photographer: Michelle Lancaster Model: Ben Atkins To the ones who lived through the worst only to come out stronger. George – I graduated school, I took on more at work, I made books a priority and somehow you were still patient with me when I seemed to never stop being busy. You helped me build my castle and I can’t thank you enough. I love you. Mac – Joint custody. Forever. I am so beyond happy you found a piece of passion in this world and I cannot wait to see how you make a footprint in this world. Now I get to be your cheerleader, girl! Amber – Girl. I can’t. Just imagine me crying and voice messaging you one million times a day like normal only this time is a hailstorm of appreciation for having you. You could never be anything but amazing so don’t let the world’s horrors ever put out that light. Give Me Books Promotions – Stalker, loyal customer, annoying, slightly disorganized but always thankful for how smooth you guys make things. Forever yours. Maria at Steamy Reads – I am still in such a state of awe at the magic you create. Rule Breakers, Bloggers, Readers, ARC Team & Street Team – I write for you guys. All day. Every day. All of my stories belong to you. Take a piece because what mine is yours. Does that make us married now? Shoreline Mafia - “Change Ya Life” Pouya - “Who Am I to Blame?” Halsey - “Drive” Enrique Iglesias - “Be with You” Tate McRae - “You Broke Me First” Fall Out Boy - “Church (remix)” Michelle Branch - “Are You Happy Now” Holly Humberstone - “Falling Asleep at the Wheel” Machine Gun Kelly - “Body Bag (feat. Bert McCracken” Arizona Zervas - “RIP” TRIGGER WARNING: It’s heavy. It’s deep. It’s dark. It’s almost too much, almost all the time. It’s dark romance and these characters have suffered in the shadows for far too long. Proceed with caution. My demons will ruin whatever is left of her halo. BLURB: BOWEN I was living on borrowed everything: time, feelings, motives, even these stale breaths. I was expired in every way. No saving me. He should have lived instead. He deserved to squeeze every drop out of life and rub it in my face the way he always did. I was stuck here as half of a person and Eve expected me to be whole enough to fix her. We were too shattered to ever be put back together again. I was her demon. EVE I was wasting every second of every day trying to make time move faster. I was ready to throw away this life as the Princess of Denmark and go back home where Bowen would be waiting for me. There was no stopping me. I had been promised to Bowen since our births. I was determined to save myself for him and only him—my lifeline. I may be bruised and broken but that only dirtied up my angel wings. Nothing he couldn’t handle. I would always be his angel. BLURB:8 EVE11 BOWEN13 CHAPTER ONE: EVE16 CHAPTER TWO: EVE21 CHAPTER THREE: BOWEN27 CHAPTER FOUR: EVE32 CHAPTER FIVE: BOWEN39 CHAPTER SIX: BOWEN43 CHAPTER SEVEN: EVE47 CHAPTER EIGHT: BOWEN52 CHAPTER NINE: EVE58 CHAPTER TEN: BOWEN61 CHAPTER ELEVEN: EVE65 CHAPTER TWELVE: EVE69 CHAPTER THIRTEEN: BOWEN72 CHAPTER FOURTEEN: BOWEN77 CHAPTER FIFTEEN: EVE83 CHAPTER SIXTEEN: VIC89 CHAPTER SEVENTEEN: EVE94 CHAPTER EIGHTEEN: BOWEN101 CHAPTER NINETEEN: EVE106 CHAPTER TWENTY: BOWEN110 CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE: EVE116 CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO: EVE121 CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE: BOWEN123 CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR: BOWEN128 CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE: BOWEN132 CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX: BOWEN138 CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN: BOWEN142 CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT: ELIAS149 CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE: EVE150 CHAPTER THIRTY: EVE158 CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE: EVE163 CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO: KHAOS166 CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR: BOWEN180 CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR: BOWEN187 CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE: BOWEN191 CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX: EVE195 CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN: BOWEN203 CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT: EVE207 CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE: BOWEN213 CHAPTER FORTY: EVE218 CHAPTER FORTY-ONE: BOWEN224 CHAPTER FORTY-THREE: GRIMM231 CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR: BOWEN236 CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE: BOWEN240 EPILOGUES242 BOWEN242 EVE245 EVE Age 13 No one ever talks to you when change is about to erupt all over your life. They talk at you, and that’s exactly what happened a week before school ended. The change I was forced into also forced me to adapt in order to survive, so that’s exactly what I did. Bowey was my best friend even though the other kids didn’t understand him. They made fun of him for being too skinny, too pale, or even too weird, but Bowey was the one person I looked forward to every day. Duke was the one guy at school who single handedly led the charge against Bowey, making one joke and turning
